Talk:Hey, whats up?/@comment-8021521-20131030114435

Hey guys... so uh, I'm not supposed to be on the computer right now XD, but... I just need to say some things..., Um.. first.. I think it's unbelievable how much the wiki has changed. I mean we all got accounts... and.. we all go on chat.. and idk.. i just feel like... everything is SO different than when the wiki started out... it just feels weird. anyway...Um.. So.. you all know i have been here for quite some time... and.. there has been A LOT of drama.. a lot of people leaving.. and people who leave then come back. and.. that's something i used to do very often.. and... i'm sorry for that :/ I mean. I never really did it to hurt any of your feelings.. i kinda did it cause... I felt so alone... and... I wanted TO BE alone... but... i have always realized i need your help sometimes. and..at times.. Iife gets so hard....so..so unfair... and..I just wanna give up sometimes. I just wanna...let go completely sometimes.. if you know what i mean. but. Thank you guys for being there for me. Through some of my toughest times. and i know i have not been the greatest friend... I've made mistakes. everyone does.. but.. I just wanna let you know that i'm truly sorry for..every bad mistake i've made over time. i never meant to hurt anyone. But i'm glad i've bee forgiven.. :). anyway.. lately.. I have been feeling pretty depressed lately.. because... well. for one my family is kind of poor right now. and... My siblings.. honestly don't give a crap about me. they never really have. and if you were me...You would know what i'm saying. I mean I know a lot of you guys have real life problems and things. but.. Idk. Yeah.. and also. I just... i feel like.. so many people have something agaisnt me. I mean like i said i have made a lot of mistakes. in real life. and online. But.... Idk I just.. have a bad feeling.. and.. lately i feel like i want to crawl in a hole and die.. or like.. go somewhere on a big snow mountain and just.. be alone in a cave.. and.. I found out that i probably wont be able to go out on Halloween tomorrow :/. anyway. Thank you guys for helping me with so many things.. so many tough times.. Thank you. love you all <3